Nicole Rodrigues is a writer, photographer, and nerd. Some folks call her Fred.
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    Today I had steak. Twice. It might sound like a simple thing, even a decadent thing (ok, it’s definitely the latter) but with the anxiety attacks I’ve been having the past few months, I’ve avoided anything decadent. No steak. No large meals. Nothing fancy, especially when I’m out somewhere for dinner. I even refused to go to a spectacular restaurant on my birthday. Why? I didn’t want to risk wasting a nice meal if I had an anxiety attack and had to throw it all up afterwards. My anxiety has been tied to some stomach issues as of late, so when I feel one coming on, one of the first things that happens is I start to get nauseous. Then I become hyper aware of my nausea, the sensation of it, and anything that’s constricting my stomach or throat immediately makes me more anxious. I have to take off jewelry, or my belt, just to try and alleviate that hypersensitivity. 

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    Please, please, please donate to Scarleteen. Consider making a recurring monthly contribution if you feel that this is within your means. Even $5 or $10 a month will go a long way to helping this very, very deserving organization.

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    Joe Keatinge and Leila del Duca have weaved an impressive tale about a gal named Kate Kristopher whose adventures with her father (and the bond they shared) have shaped the woman she is today. Though we only get brief glimpses at her childhood, each scene carries an emotional weight that isn’t shoehorned into place. You care about them both individually but you also immediately sense the love between them, even if they happen to be at odds with each other at the time.

    Review of Shutter #1, by fredscribbles.

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